Riot.EXE's Battle Log

Devious Journal Entry

2008-09-06T20:24:40Z

Stracie "Stray" Mason by ~RiotEXE on deviant ART

Real Talk: The Life and Times of Riot.EXE

2008-08-06T08:16:50Z

The Art Life
- So yeah, I haven't drawn anything new and completed since Natalia. I'm sorry, it's pretty much my own damn fault for not taking the time to draw more. For some reason, I've just been getting out of the house as much as possible and spending time with friends and whatnot. I don't have a lack of ideas, and I have currently been trying to get some more practice and step my game up.

- I took a summer class at ECC. Drawing 2...I had the same Drawing teacher that I had last time 3 years ago...that was cool. Class was a little odd though...see, there were only 5 students in this class, and Drawing 1 was at the same time...so it was just this one huge clusterfuck of a class, kinda. It kinda worked, it kinda didn't. I wish I had more time to work on things, but my Job got in the way, 'cause I usually work nights and that class was 4 days a week. The assignments were alright, and I actually did learn some interesting shit, in deceptive ways. I just wish we would have worked with more traditional mediums, because thats what I was hoping to get the most lesson time with. Oh well...lets see what I do post class.

- So my friend John/Kitty-fucking-Jingles (I don't know...) and I got our creative minds to clash, and we are going to create a comic strip that he will write, I will draw, and his friend Jen (who I have yet to meet) will color. Here's what I can tell you about the comic so far...it's called "Reality Checkpoint" and it's about two people (design is in progress) who are experiencing a dimensional rift of sorts that is causing pop culture references of various forms to start influencing OUR world...and how the world itself deals with this rift. More news to come as we get shit straightned out and tight.

- Will I work on new drawings? Of course I will. I've been buying a shit ton of art books and been trying to get some practice when I can (usually during work) so I can see where I've been fucking up and make it right so I can actually present some finished shit to y'all. Bear with me, alright?

The Work Life
- Work is going fine. I'm still at the same job, Murray's Discount Auto...my co workers are pretty fucking awesome for the most part, save for this current "revolving door other manager" situation we've been experiencing. I enjoy being there but I need to find a better paying job if I expect to get the fuck out of this house anytime soon. Oh well...it's good that I've held onto this job for as long as I have...it's been a year and a couple months now.

The Home Life
- There hasn't really been anything going on here, as I'm usually not home until late at night unless something else happens that requires me to stay home. Something big and bad is about to happen though...apparently when I started my savings account earlier this year, Mom and Stepdad got it in their heads that I was supposed to have at LEAST $2,000 bucks in it by this month. With the money I make from Murray's and the shit I have to pay off (plus the only reason I'm still here, despite that whole bullshit my mom was spewing about "AUGUST 31ST, YOU'RE GONE!!!" last year, according to her, is school...um...ok), I can't believe that it never occured to them that this was an impossible goal for me...one that I never made nor agreed to. Apparently they wanna see my savings account at some point this month...well, they're not gonna see anything close to $2,000 bucks in there...so I'm just bracing myself for the inevitable bullshit marathon when it happens. I'll let y'all know the aftermath.

The Gaming Life
- Y'all motherfuckers need to start playing fighting games...seriously. I need all the practice I can get, because Andy's House is serious business. That is all.

The Dating Life
- Oh yes, everyones FAVORITE part of my life updates! Stupid Girl Stories! YAY! Ok, ok...before I get into this double header of retarded shit, I REALLY need to make this known right now, as a disclaimer. Ladies, Know this, and know this well...It is HIGHLY unlikely that I will ever write about you in my journal for people to see. You do not need to fear appearing here beccause more often than not...shit just ain't worth talkin' about, and If I had some sort of a problem with you, we'd have gone over it already...if there was one at all. A good amount of you ladies DO NOT SUCK AT ALL and I love you for it...for real. So with that said...here's a couple of things that happened to me that I found absurd and/or fucked up enough to discuss with you all here.

"Oh, you like me? Really? Then why don't you fucking act like it..."

- Ok, a little backstory first. This chick right here, we will call her, "R1", is friends with this other dude I know, also named Kenny, who frequented my local mall a lot. I barely saw this chick though...maybe about 2 or 3 times ever. She was pretty cool, I guess...but there was a huge gap where I did not see her at all. Not that it mattered much, as when I did see her, it wasn't for long.

Anyways...So I'm at my old job at the arcade hangin' with Steve B. It's just about time for the mall to close and then I see R1 and some other random chick walk by. R1 180's and comes back to the arcade and asks me what I'm doing later on. I tell her I'm not doin' anything, and she then invites me to come to Denny's to hang with her and some other people...I agree to it, and so when Steve closes up, we part ways and I head over to Denny's. When I get there...she is not there...no big deal, 'cause guess who Is there...Megan C. (who's Pokemon goes by the name of "Black Rhapsody", someone I dated once, and will never write about because it wasn't that bad, honestly...) drrinking some coffee and sitting alone. I sit with her and we talk for a bit about random shit...then, the fucking circus walks in.

Lots of people I don't know, and ended up creepin' Megan, Ryan (Tilt.EXE), and myself the fuck out...lets just say furries of the hardcore variety were involved...and I was not prepared to deal with that.

Irrelevant shit, really...anyways, The manager at Denny's tells everyone there that if they aren't ordering anything, they need to leave (apparently this crew shows up often, and is annoying I guess), and I wasn't planning on eating anything, so I leave...I wait outside for R1, and she does show up...I give her a hug, and we don't let go for some reason...we stay outside talkin' with some other people and shit...eventually they go back inside, so it's just R1 and I out there. I ask her what she wants and she confesses to me that she's attracted to me, to which I respond, "Really? Damn thats random...", I shit you not. I mean, like I said...I had only seen her ever a handful of times, so where was the room for her to do that? We get to talkin' for a bit and I tell her I was just gonna head home, but I stayed around for her, 'cause I didn't wanna just leave her hangin' like that. I give her my contact info and shit (she does not do the same, this is IMPORTANT, so remember it.) and head off.

I do not see or hear from this chick for like, a couple months and some change...

Later on...I See Ellen (Murder.EXE) and Dustin at fuckin' random, at the old job, and I chill with them for a while. They spoke of going to a bonfire party at Kenny's place...so I decide to go with them. Turns out R1 is there...hooooooooooly shit, I get to gain some MOTHERFUCKIN' ANSWERS! So I get to Kenny's and I say whats up to the peeps outside, and then head inside and see none other than R1 in the kitchen. She then tells me she tried to call me once, but somehow got the wrong number...and that she hadn't checked her myspace in forever because her internet was out or some shit?

Ok, first off, remember that contact info I told y'all about? This is what I gave her: My myspace address, my messenger screen names, my eMail. I did not give her my number on paper...I gave it to her through myspace. Note that she did not add me on myspace, I had to FIND HER because she did not give me any contact information whatsoever. If she hadn't checked her myspace in forever (which was true...no message I sent her was ever read, myspace tells me this. Plus, she added me as a friend, so she at least got online long enough to do THAT), then how the fuck did she get my number when pretty much no one in her circle has my number to begin with? She also insisted that she had given me her contact info...she did not. So, she does this time...I have yet to see her on yahoo ever, and She has never answered a phonecall I made or returned a call to me (I only called her like, 4 times in the span of a week.)

I have not seen or heard from her since. I am quite amused at the bullshit I'm given by chicks sometimes...

"I never thought I could ever be so right about a chick..."

- Let it be known RIGHT FUCKING NOW that all of you...ALL OF YOU guys and lesbians that are attracted to a chick that is into video gaming, D&D, comics, anime, or any random shit like that...BE FUCKING CAREFUL...chicks like this come at a price...but if you're observant, you will not be damaged when things go awry, and they usually do (Prove me wrong, I fucking DARE you)...listen and learn!

So we're gonna call this chick, "R2", because she has the same name as R1...

So I met her through OKCupid a while back...and we talked as friends...we shared some things about ourselves and we became pretty good friends through it all, but she said some shit that set off alarms in my head.

RED FLAGS:
- "I'm not like other girls..." What she means: I understand that girls give you the same ol' bullshit, and I will not do you like that because I like and respect you, as a friend or otherwise. What it actually is: I will, in fact, do the same shit the other girls did, but it will be done in fresh and unique ways, but don't say I didn't tell you so.
- "I would be honored to end up falling for you..." What she means: I understand the good qualities you have in you that you would have to offer me, and while it seems that I'm not attracted to you right now...maybe you'll have a shot with me as time goes on. What it actually is: Essentially telling me I'm in the friends zone for an undetermined amount of time, but most likely forever...this is what I'm gonna say because I am too punk to just fucking tell you we're just friends.

Other flags were just variations on those two items above...

Time goes on...we learn more about each other...things are still good, but I am still wary. I usually am these days...but when chicks do the shit they do to you throughout life, regardless of whether or not you end up dating them...you're always one foot out of the door in anticipation of bullshit that may cause drama. Her birthday is coming up...she loathes this because it SEEMS that no one wants to spend it with her. She then asks me this gem of a question: "If no one wants to spend my birthday with me, will you?" I'm like, "what the fuck, I don't wanna be your god damned backup plan!" and she said she didn't mean it like that...I will give her the benefit of the doubt on that one. People say things in odd ways sometimes, I know I'm guilty of it, but you only get mad at me for it if you don't know me well enough, and that doesn't happen often.

Anyways...so I find out when her birthday is. Through time I pretty much got the basic fact that she wants to feel special. She wants a guy that will treat her right...I aim to treat people right, and make 'em feel special any way I can (as many of you can attest to) so I set out to do that for her on her birthday, which would be marked as the first time I met her in person. I get her birthday off from work, but I still have to attend class. She was to meet me after my class let out.

I mistakenly told her the wrong building to meet me at, but didn't realize it until THAT DAY (I usually got to that wing of ECC through a pathway from one of the other buildings, there is no marker if you go on that path that tells you what building the art class is in, hence my fuckup) and I left her a message on Facebook and shit after checking the proper entrance and the entrance I mistakenly gave her...she didn't show up at either one. I called home to get her number off of my phone so that I could call her from school and regroup. Turns out she went off and had lunch with some other people instead and left me no indication online or off about this change in plans (RED FLAG MUTHAFUCKA!) I kept my cool about the discovery, and told her we'd figure out what to do once she was done...but I was kinda pissed about that on the inside...I mean, I got the day off of work FOR HER and thats what I get first? This oughtta be interesting.

So I get home and I eventually catch her online...we discuss what to do for her and it's decided that we'd see "The Love Guru". I had already seen everything I wanted to see at that point, and it was HER BIRTHDAY, therefore I felt it would only be right to see something she wanted to see. I buy our tickets online and I head out to scoop her up. We get to the theatre (took a different way from her place since I'm unfamiliar with that area of Elgin she lives in, thank the heavens she is actually a decent co-pilot, something many of my friends manage to fuck up somehow...) and we get snacks (I usually don't, but why the fuck not...I was already paying for everything else) and we watch the movie. Cuddling ensues (which I told her would happen...and she was blatantly pleased about it when I said it...), but not right away...I didn't want to cross any boundaries or anything, because that would be bad. The movie ends, and we're still in the theatre...A kiss ensues, it just kinda happened...but it was definitely mutual.

I take her home...she does some other shit, we talk later...everything seems ok I guess. She said she was a litle shocked about it, but was happy with how our outing went and she was happy that I made her feel special. Mission fucking accomplished, right? Right...

So we talk more...everything is fine and dandy...SEEMINGLY...but then MORE RED FLAGS!!! HOT SHIT HOT SHIT!!! The way she had been talkin' to me recently...it seemed like she was hiding something and was afraid to tell me. After seeing a certain picture that I considered, but didn't trip about because, I mean...look at MY main picture, that is my friend Sarah (NeonLotus.EXE) so it could have been the same thing with her and that dude, I decided to investigate and see if I was right about all these flags. Turned out I was. Turns out this dude was some other guy she was close to in some way, but she never spoke of him to me. Our kiss obviously complicated shit because now she's all like "I thought I was clear with you about us being friends, you even said we were just friends..." Nope...I didn't say shit, and while individual things she said to me had some sort of clarity to them...as a whole, it created one hell of a messed up message that SEEMED to tell me that I was considered. If her case was that she did want to be just friends with me and nothing more...the things she said wouldn't have ever come out, and there wouldn't have been a kiss because she would NOT have let it happen (all things I brought to her attention). I know, I've kissed a girl that apparently didn't want to be kissed and when that happens, you KNOW its happening and you stop right fucking there. She's tellin' me more about this guy and I'm steady confrontin' her on the whole thing (because you all know I don't fuckin' play, especially when my heart gets involved and I really wanted to be wrong because I really liked her and thought she was a good person) and this is what I gathered from it all: She doesn't want to be in a relationship right now (RED FLAAAAAAG) but is actively spending as much time as possible with this dude. She said, and I quote, "I'm just enjoying the ride".

...Woman, this is not Marvel vs. Capcom 2, no one is gonna take you for a mother fucking ride...

Now, apparently she introduced him to the family and her father LIKES HIM and says he should be "initiated" into the family, and...guess what...she's scared about that. Well...this is what happens when you try to eat your cake and have it too...(because saying "have your cake and eat it too" like it's a bad thing is fucking retarded...if you have a cake, OF COURSE you can eat it too, what else are you gonna do, throw it at someone?). Deep down, I am laughing heartily at this turn of events.

I spoke to her like, one last time to congratulate her on that...never mind the fact they're still "not official", and she got on my case before I could even get to congratulating her...like I was gonna do some petty immature crap and start some drama. Nope...not worth it. So to my ultimate dismay, I was completely right and dealt with yet another batch of typical bullshit from a chick, but as a Remix...oh well. I haven't spoken to her since because she just hasn't been around...but honestly, it wouldn't bother me if I don't have another chance to...I am sick of this bullshit, and I am not about to sit around and be spoken to in thinly veiled attempts to not feel guilty for the fact that you know you fucked up (she admit to this in frustration, as well as called herself a horrible person for "not knowing how to NOT kiss someone").

Ok...thats all for now...hope everyone enjoyed reading this...or something...share your love, hate, and

Words for those that like to read...

2008-02-15T08:46:04Z

Today...today I feel compelled to write. Write what? Write SOMETHING...

How about I share some stories with you? 3? Ok...three it is. Sit down...make yourself comfortable, hopefully my stories will entertain you.

"Everything I've ever learned from life, I've learned from your mistakes."

- It's a quote I live by...I made it myself, but...I've never explained to anyone what it really meant. I want to share that with you all...I want you to understand me a little bit better...

The important part of it all, is to understand the "your" in the quote...it means me, and it means all of you. ALL of you.

When I mean me...it means that I need to remember every mistake I make, regardless of how little or how big it may be. It's about personal growth...understanding the journey of life; How are you going to understand where you are, if you don't know how you got there, and whether or not that path is leading you to something wonderful, or something terrible? I think it's important to remember the things you've done, and learn from the consequences of the choices of your actions; in doing so, I better understand why I do the things I do...and to knock it off if those things are bad, and could possibly lead me to an end I cannot reverse no matter how hard I try. I believe that in learning from my past, I can work on becoming a better person. Lemme share an example with you...

Back in the day (read: Houston, TX)...I used to solve a lot of problems by being agressive. It lead to a lot of fights with people...some verbal, but many involving fists. I won some, I lost some...I won't lie, but after a while, I began to notice why it kept happening. Even though I wouldn't outwardly act like some sort of badass that could take on anyone or anything without fear, it was the fact that others knew that if they pressed hard enough, they would provoke me to fight. I gave them control over my actions, and living like a puppet to that kind of thing can mess you up pretty bad if you let it continue. So...what did I do? I made a pledge to myself to stop and think about how to stop the conflict, rather than just react to it. I made a pledge to myself to not raise a fist in anger, but rather, in honor...to defend myself from a TRUE threat, and to protect those I cared about. I put those pledges into action over a decade ago...I have not been in a fist fight since...no one messed with me once I made it known that their pressure wouldn't crush my well being, my character...and I do believe I have become a better person for it. I learned from my mistakes...it's stupid to behave as if the past has no bearing on anything...I don't dwell in it...but I acknowledge it.

When I mean you...it means that I'm paying attention to your stories, your actions...how it affected you and how it affected others. Every time you share yourself with others, you're teaching them things about life that they may have yet to experience themselves. Sometimes, these stories, your history...sometimes they don't have the happiest of endings. They reveal the fallacies of others, and the fallacies of yourself (regardless of whether or not said fallacies still exist within you, the point is...they happened.) I have a lot of respect for history, as you learn a lot about how things came to be, and why they are the way they are. I respect my friends, therefore, I take the things they say into consideration...whether it's advice, a story, or just...whatever. Because of that, I've managed to avoid a lot of bad situations that I wouldn't have known how to deal with otherwise, had it not been for you all teaching me somehow. So...with that, I say thank you, and I hope that I may have been just as much as service to you.

Hopefully, it all makes sense now...

"From Russia, with...uh..."

- So there's this girl I know...

My birthday was coming up, and I was all "whatever" about it. I wasn't depressed or anything...it was just that I didn't have anything planned for it at the time, and that was that. I was on the phone with this girl, and she was asking me about what kind of gift would make me happy for my birthday. I was tryin' to tell her that it wasn't anyones obligation to get me anything for my birthday...friendship is way more than material possessions, you know? (The existance of "sentimental value" not-with-standing...) She wouldn't let up about it...she's stubborn like that, I guess. I halfassed tell her I'd be happy if I got a Nintendo DS, because I had been meaning to replace the one that had been stolen from me while I was running a DDR tournament back at my old arcade job. She began asking me questions about it...what it was, where she could get one...I was thinkin' "she can't be serious...there's no way...", but I answer her questions honestly anyways. I wasn't holding my breath, but stranger things have happened to me. Anyways...as the conversation went on, I dropped her this little gem, "Y'know...if you actually do buy me a DS, you're pretty much buying me an engagement ring..." I kinda meant it as a joke, but I was kinda serious at the same time, because I had feelings for her, but due to the things she'd say to me over the phone and stuff not really meshing with how she actually behaved around me in person, I definitely had my doubts about where she was with me. She laughed it off and asked me what that was supposed to mean, and I told her, "just what it sounds like, pretty much...I don't get that kind of attention from girls, so for one to be serious about doing something like that, means a lot to me." We left it at that, and time went on...

Cut to the day after my birthday (when I would actually GET to see her), and I meet her at the mall to hang out with her after she got off work...she asked me where she could buy that DS I mentioned...Holy. Fucking. Shit. Yup, she was dead to rights serious. So I took her to the E.B. and 5 minutes later, I got a shiny new red and black DS lite. I thought, "shit, might as well get a new game"...so I went to get Pokemon Diamond (because the original DS was stolen, I missed the release...which is a first for that series), and buy it with my own money...NOPE! She shells out the money for that one too...what the hell, right? So I'm like, "I was meaning to renew my membership there"...so I go to pay for THAT with my own money...NOPE! She goes and pays for THAT TOO!?! I stopped considering things to buy because...well...I was sure if I kept on going, she'd keep shelling out money for me that she didn't need to in the first place...so we left. We went outside and talked for a while as she smoked a cigarette. She then gave me a birthday hug, and kissed me on the cheek...so...I kissed her back, on the cheek...then...I think I saw something that might not have been there...so yeah...she left after that.

So, How do I repay something like that? I wanted to, really bad...what she did for me there was too damn nice and it meant so much to me, and she had to do NONE of it, as I was going to take care of it all myself eventually. Her birthday was coming up (it passed by now, but yeah...listen to the tale!), and I wanted to give her something that would mean a lot to her, but I needed my money for other things (gas, food, bills, weddings, moms birthday, christmas, ugh...) So, I figured I'd just give the girl what she wanted, and on top of that, tell her exactly how I felt about her. Back in the beginning of our friendship, I had shown her some of my artwork...she liked what she saw, and blatantly hinted at wanting me to draw her. I procrastinated it for quite a while (my drive to draw is very weak these days...and there's no real reason for it, but that's another story for another day...) I figured now was as good a time as any to oblige her on that. However, a drawing alone, to me, wasn't good enough...I wanted to do more, and being that I wanted to tell her how I felt about her, I wanted to do something I had never done before. I made her not one, but TWO mix cd's of music I knew she'd like (and I so called it, go me.), and decided that it would be these three things that I would give her as a birthday gift. We planned to meet up a few days before her birthday at her apartment...I was to drive there, but that plan failed, and I don't want to get into it. So instead, I took the train to see her a week later...awesome. An hour long train ride later, I get to the station downtown and greet her with a hug. I declare we get something to eat, because I hadn't eaten yet, and she drops me one HELL of a bomb:

"I have to get home by 10 o clock."
...what's going on at 10?...
"I'm going on a date..."
*look of shock and "oh my mother fucking GOD, no."* ...OH!...um, with who?...
"...my boyfriend."
...Oh, really? when did that happen?...
"Kenny, why do you need to know that?" (steady gettin' defensive?)
...I was just wonderin'...(does he even EXIST!?!, damn girl...didn't even let me give you props or nothin')

Ok, so abort the plan of telling her how I felt, as it was now a moot point, but commence with the gift giving! (note that prior to all of this, she made no mention of having a man, much less seemed excited about having a new one, given that the last two I knew about were real ASSHOLES!) As we eat our food, I hand her the CD's I made for her, and told her that she'd like them a lot. She was a little happy about it...but then I reached into my backpack and pulled out my sketchbook and her face lit up like the 4th of fucking July happy smiles for miles, I shit you not. I gave her the drawing, (it's been online for a few days now, y'all probably saw it already) she gave me a big hug, I gave our leftovers to a homeless man, we waited for my train back to Elgin, we hugged goodbye, I got on the train.

You know what, though? I'm not the least bit upset by the turn of events. I lost nothing...I still have her as a good friend, and I have a better understanding of where she was at with me all along...I guess it was just a matter of me seeing something that probably wasn't there in the first place, I guess. It happens.

"talk. Talk. TALK!!!"

- So...yeah, 'nother girl, 'nother story

I've loosely known her since, like...early 2005, I think...I don't remember...the internet started this one. Anyways, I say "loosely" because we didn't really talk much. There didn't really seem to be much reason behind it, usually she'd say Hi, I'd say hi back, I'd talk to some other people or be in the middle of something, and she'd be gone by the time I got back to her...OR! We'd talk about our day for a bit and be done with it. Nothing bad, but nothing I would call "deep" conversation either...it was what it was. Recently, we've been talking more...even on the phone.

...

You know what? Never mind. This story is stupid, because it's like, barely even begun, and to her, I probably look like a sad foolish man that doesn't talk enough or deliver on that vision of confidence that she believed she saw in me, because she does things that annoy the shit out of me...not because she means to...I know she doesn't, the shit just annoys me, and it would be best if she and I discussed that on our own terms rather than me talking about it here for her to discover later and then have her call me and be like "KENNY WHAT THE FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKER SAY THAT SHIT TO MY FACE YOU FAKE ASS BITCH!" *click!*

I mean...I think she's a really cool girl, but it's like...certain pet peeves make me become an asshole in dealing with them (because under normal circumstances, the people that do these things, save for one exception, are people I'm not even cool with, or are people that I am somewhat cool with, but have been pissing me off and they KNOW it), and I see no fucking reason to be an asshole towards her, she's too important right now...whether she knows it or not.

(Read: Kenny wants his shot at redemption.)

Devious Journal Entry

2008-02-09T09:51:46Z

1-30-2008 Natalia S. by ~RiotEXE on deviant ART

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2007-11-27T05:03:55Z

11-26-07 Tarynne Masana by ~RiotEXE on deviant ART

stuff, and things...

2007-10-15T06:04:28Z

I need to stop thinking about that so called great mystery about how so many girls I know tell me how great I am, yet don't consider me worthy of a relationship or whatever for whatever god damned reason...this quest is pointless and NONE of you women are ever going to give me a straight answer towards that question, ever. I will say though...that if the reason I am not considered is based on my ethnicity...please do us both a favor and remove yourself from my life.

I need to stop letting myself be attracted to girls in general...it's way too damn easy for me to fall for a chick because I can see the good qualities in her...the problem is that so many of the girls I know aren't in positions where they know what they want in life...relationships included...so it causes drama, and depresses the shit out of me.

I need to end this streak of bad women/good women that got tainted by bad men and decided to take it out on me and then be fine in the relationship that came after or something, thusly invalidating me...but the only way to end that is to "find" a good girl that is willing to give me a shot at being a GOOD boyfriend to her, and not go crazy/shady/retarded/unhygenic/overly dramatic on me...but because of the recent relationship streak, and all the "almost" girls I know...and the ones I'm not sure of...I am having an extremely hard time trusting girls in general (provided that the girls in question aren't taken, lesbian, or related by blood)...which sucks because I met this really awesome girl, and I think she could be into me as well...but I just don't know...I am tired of being hurt, and I am tired of feeling like I am worth nothing, because even when you tell me how "important" I seem to be to you (girls in general)...the way things have been for me for so long make me just not take that shit too seriously...

...why the fuck do I care about this so much? It's not like I can't handle being single...but...

New Pic + Evolution...Marissa "Medusa" Corrina

2007-05-23T07:29:35Z

The very first pic of Medusa...I don't know what the hell I was thinking with that outfit. There wasn't much of a concept behind her except for modernizing the old greek gorgon with snakes for hair. I thought it'd be crafty to do braids with decorative snake-head ends...

The second and more complete edition of Medusa...Still didn't quite know what to do with her, but I knew she was supposed to be an important character of mine down the line. The outfit is terribly mismatched and her arms are WAY too short. The mark on her head, strangely enough, became the mark for my friend, Eve...all I did for Eve was flip it over. Even stranger was the fact that I didn't realize I had done that until much later. The 1337 speak for her name...that was part of a social experiment I was conducting at the time. I wanted to see how much it would annoy people if 1337 speak was used in real life settings (read: written, instead of typed) and I went so far as to incorporate it into a few of my drawings...but the only person I wound up annoying was myself.

A more refined version of Medusa...I changed the mark on her head, and figured out that I wanted her to be a Dancer of sorts, and Puerto Rican...just because. Since she was influenced by music and whatnot, thats where the whole "equalizer light design" came into play on her outfit, but what she's doing with her outfit at the moment here, is completely out of character, and I can't explain why I drew her like that.

Last years revision of Medusa. I kept with the music and dance theme with the outfit, and that came out damn nice. Changed the mark on her head once again...just because, but thanks to my homegirl Kim "the Royale" pointing out her nose was kinda screwed up, I was like "CRAP!" This was also where I gave her an actual name, Marissa Corrina. I figured out that Medusa was merely a nickname friends would give her, based on how she usually danced (swaying like a snake, with some pop-n-lock, and some hip hop), and how people would freeze in place and stare as if in a trance. Because of this, Marissa decided to take the nickname to a new level by dying her hair green (it's naturally black) and styling it as if she had snakes for hair.

The latest version of Marissa "Medusa" Corrina, I decided to up the dancer look by having her body reflect that she'd been doing it for years. (since she was about 5, she's done Ballet, Salsa, Hip Hop, Jazz, Breakdancing, and Ballroom) Still kept the equalizer light design because it just friggin' rocks, damn it, but I decided to do away with the head mark...it was pointless anyways. The record she's holding is also reflective of a new aspect I decided to add to her...she's also gotten into turntablism. Thought it'd be a good idea to also have her be musically inclined (She can play Guitar, Bass, Drums, Piano, and Violin as well, but doesn't do it often so people don't really know about it) since I wanted music itself to be a large part of who she is. She's going to play the role of Heroine in a story I'm gonna be workin' on soon (which very well could be an RPG) and her "special skill" involves her using various dance steps to boost her abilities...since her fighting style also incoporates dancing (but its NOT Capoeira, I swear). I'll have a clearer idea of her when I work on her backstory. ENJOY!!!

new drawing!

2007-05-10T02:37:11Z

Adrienne Slovenik by ~RiotEXE on deviant ART

Update on life...

2007-02-06T03:22:15Z

The Work Life:
- So The Seasonal Stint at Hot Topic is over and done with, so all I'm left with right now is Game Crazy. This would be all and well had it not been for the fact that a bunch of bullshit that has happened with their corporate branch, and post-closing hour grubbing employees (according to my boss) has robbed me and possible others 'round the USA of getting ANY HOURS WHATSOEVER! so I have a job, yet I'm jobless...odd...whatever, Free Rentals for me, bitches. I'm bustin' my ass as best as I can to get money...because money is the root of all evil, yet it is a very necessary evil and I'm at the point where I CRAVE it. (Because I have debts to pay and shit...)

...Shoulda never left the arcade, damn it...I actually miss the place...

The Home Life:
- When we moved to IL, it was agreed upon that when I turned 24, I was to leave the house, had I not left already...somewhere along the line, this mysteriously changed to October '07 (according to my stepdad), and then August 31, 2007 (according to my mother)...back in 2004, I got into a car accident, and thusly LOST my first car...which held me back from leaving in the first place. Without my own transportation, I am a burden upon whoever else I live with...so I wasn't even thinking about moving out until that was taken care of...then I lost Lowe's...and that began a downward spiral of dwindling funds...

A few months back, my mother had left the state to go back to New York to visit with old friends and shit...during this time, my stepfather and I had a discussion as to where I needed to be in life, come August 31, 2007. He also proposed a kickass offer to me...see, the car I'm drivin' now, is actually my mothers (sorta), yet I drive it the most, paid for most of the oil changes, and contributed to the repair of the driver side window (it wouldn't open for a while, making drive throughs more of a project than they needed to be)...basically, he said that it'd be a good idea to take over the payments of the car I'm drivin' now, once I leave (at which point, the payments would be harmless and short lived), rather than to go out there and have to shop around for a new used car (OXYMORON!)...I say thats pretty badass, so I'm not sweating the car part of the ordeal.

Job Hunting is a cunt...yup...its beyond being a bitch...but this is currently the biggest obstacle in my upcoming fate...regardless of my standing in life, I HAVE TO LEAVE THE HOUSE AUGUST THIRTY-FIRST, TWO THOUSAND AND SEVEN...and thanks to the bullshit with Game Crazy, Debts are an even bigger obstacle than anything else...so yeah...Kenny is taking up residence in shit creek.

I actually got kicked out of the house last friday...because I didn't want to work in a liquor store, and for some reason, that set my mom off in a fury that pretty much told me she hates me and thinks I'm nothing but a burden and a pain in the ass, and that I live my life to make hers a living hell (paraphrasing...but this is pretty much what she said)...during her bitching to my stepfather about this while he JUST got to work (which is pretty fucked up of her...), UPS called...to confirm a job interview I was to have the following monday morning (today...it already happened and I think I have a fighting chance)...so she decided to let me stay...and magically forgot that she screamed at the top of her lungs and said really hurtful things to me/at me (this has gone on for YEARS...I've attempted to confront her about this...but of course, I'm not taken seriously...thanks to her marriage to my now stepfather, this is even more difficult in that he's almost like her, but quieter about it...)

Oh yeah...FUCK THIS GOD DAMNED COLD WEATHER.

If worse comes to worse come august 31...expect "a Riot in Houston"...a bittersweet victory to those friends-that-are-pretty-much-family-to-me to look forward to...

I'm back in school now...not much else to say about that except that I'm back in school now...

The Art Life:

- I'm drawing when I can, but not exactly planning anything in terms of "remixing friends"...I wanna work on more of my original shit right now, as it requires less brainpower. (BELIEVE IT!)

...So you all saw the Vigilante All-Stars Logo and are probably wondering what the fuck the meaning of it is. Some of you may remember (or were actually a part of) the Ill-Fated group, RaveRiot...VA is more or less, a Do-Over...I want to start anew...fresher, wiser, and have more of a purpose. I'm not recruiting or anything yet, because I'd like to actually have something to SHOW for my efforts, so that I'll be taken more seriously, because right now, when it comes to drawing...I don't even take myself all that seriously. (We're Still waiting on Leesa the Riot Grrl? Why, Kenny...Why?)

I haven't kept up with writing the Art Rants because I haven't been in much of a mood or state of mind to write them...seeing as my life situation is pretty serious, and has taken precedence over all of my creative efforts...

Part 2 of the Ross Campbell reviews will come once I've finished Re-Reading Wet Moon 1 and 2 (Trilby is Love, damn it), so I'm not writing a half assed review on hazy memories...Ross said I shouldn't feel like I have to do this, but I want to...for you guys...especially since I already wrote the first part (You DID buy the Abandoned...right?)

More Advertising! Steve Rolston is gonna do (Or has already done) art for one of the Degrassi Comics (Yup...the Most Dramatic School in North America has comics now...in "Manga" Form)...Pick that shit up!

I'm also gonna start working on one of my main stories once my life gets back on some form of track...title wise, I'm thinking of something along the lines of "Amazons of the Concrete Jungle"...since it has to do with a group of Late-Teen Girls, Swords, Fisticuffs, Sorcery, Breakdancing, and Street Art/Grafitti...

The Dating Life:

- I have no money, therefore I have no business "passively pursuing" the ladies...not that there was much inprovement in that aspect of my life as it is...

...thats all for now...thanks for listenin'...

The Vigilante All-Stars Logo is here!

2007-01-31T23:00:30Z

Edit with the Riot.EXE Colors

Plain Logo (to fuck around with, obviously)

Props and thanks to Jen/Nabi for smoothin' out the rough edges...

lemme know what you all think

New Drawing: Godiva Skye

2007-01-12T07:06:05Z

so here she is...you guys have seen her in Pyro form twice...but that was beta testing of some sort...then I did a whole lot of headshots for her...then I was gonna do some other shit...I dunno...there was a whole lot of development behind this one...and now its done...check it out and hope you like it...

F.A.Q.'s of Life 4.3 - The Dating Chronicles: Deep Space Black - Special Kenny Edition

2006-12-27T13:21:48Z

- Y'know, I originally wasn't going to write this one at all...mainly because I didn't think those that matter (read: everyone I'm friends with) would give a shit...its been proven before, and I didn't think I wanted to go through that again. However...I thought about it, and sometimes the only approach I need to take to a situation is the "FUCK YOU" approach...so here it is...F.A.Q.'s of Life 4.3, the special edition I could give a rats ass if you've been waiting for...

The Game...or Lack Thereof, you decide...

- All the ladies I know need to pat themselves on the back right now for creating the most famous illusion I've ever known to have in my life...That I am indeed, a Pimp. Let me make it clear to everyone right now, that I am NOT A PIMP...there's a difference in knowing many females, and fucking many females...I'm the guy that simply knows many females (to be more specific...many WHITE females...don't ask why, 'cause I don't even know)...and fucking many females doesn't necessarily make you A PIMP...it either makes you a Porn Star (which I look at as a profession, not a moral mishap), one that is comfortable with sex for the sake of sex without the responsibilities of a relationship (I'm not going there...I don't really know what to think of such things...), An Asshole, or a Rapist that has yet to be caught (but needs to be caught, and have his dick chopped off...among other things...but I digress...)

- I bring this up because, throughout life, I've had guys ask me what my trick is to knowing such hot girls/chicks/women...I'm gonna share this secret with you right now! THERE IS NO TRICK! THERE IS NO GAME! EITHER SHE WANTS TO TALK TO YOU OR SHE DOESN'T! IF SHE TALKS TO YOU, YOU BETTER HAVE SOME HONEST AND INTERESTING SHIT TO SAY! HYGIENE IS A WONDERFUL THING! SO IS TACT AND POLITENESS! Basically, I know who I know just because there's a mutual understanding that we are indeed cool with each other and thinks that there's something in one that the other thinks is pretty badass. Its common sense...politeness, listening skills, general knowledge of things...I'm really just making friends here. Besides, no two girls are truly the same, and if they are...one of them is a fucking phony. Also, like I've stated in the past, I believe that no girl is put on this planet simply to date a man and make sure he's well groomed, fed, and fucked at all times...if I'm attracted to any given female further than friendship...you best believe I saw something worthwile in her...but I've been wrong before.

- I'm not inexperienced when it comes to getting a girlfriend...but there honestly wasn't ever a trick to it...in my life, she and I usually just kinda happened. I've had enough to know how to approach such a thing...but because of how I go about this...its not usually the best "strategy". I'm the kind of guy that won't even think of dating a girl unless I feel there's traits and whatnot about her that are worth putting forth such effort. (This does not mean that if I don't want to date you, that I look lowly upon you...it just means that there's no attraction on that level, and I really have no problem being merely a friend and nothing more.) Should I find those things...I simply try to get to know her better as a person...find out what she likes and why, and if I like it as well. Find out what her comfort zone is...and work damn hard to NEVER cross it. Find out whether or not she's a fucking bitch. Find out what kind of things we have in common...is there so much that we cancel ourselves out (Read: practically dating yourself), too little that a relationship is pointless? Balance is the key there. Lastly...is the feeling mutual? (The True Deciding Factor) Its a very hesitant strategy, but I'm like this because I'd rather not play myself for a sucker and put everything on the line for a girl that may not even be into me, and have her feel guilty when she finds out and has to turn me down. However, if she's the type to not say anything and completely wait for me to do ANYTHING at all, then its nothing more than a missed opporitunity. It's 2006,you'd think that by now people would know that it's ok for girls to ask out guys as well as the other way around...but I digress.

- Location...I meet her where I meet her. Personally, I'd rather it be in person, 'cause it feels better that way, but I've had a wonderful streak of never meeting a psycho off the net, so I don't really frown upon that as a means of meeting someone. (...but for fucks sakes people, be SMART about that, will ya?)

- I'm the kind of guy that knows to keep his hands to himself, generally...but in life, I've come to know an unusually high amount of girls that flirt for the sake of being flirtatious. Because of this, I don't respond to a girl flirting with me as "she's into me"...so ladies, if thats your method, it won't work on me...ever.

Character Select

- There really isn't a specific type of girl that I'm into, although I'll reiterate that I'm specifically NOT into bitches or psychos. I'm like that because of simply growing up how and where I did. Race was never important, neither was height. Weight is SLIGHTLY important, as in...not so big she breaks me when on top of me, and not so skinny that I'm afraid of breaking her simply by hugging her goodbye. (those that have seen the many girls I've dated in life know I'm pretty open...so save your bitchouts for someone who deserves them, alright? thanks...) There isn't a specific style of dress that my potential girl HAS to be in, but I'll admit that certain styles catch my eye over others. the more unique AS WELL AS proper, the better, (Read: just because the shit fits, doesn't mean you look good in it...there's a difference between being you, and wearing a costume...come to know it well.) nor would I judge someone based on how little or how much they're wearing at all...thank living in Houston for 14 years for that...its so humid down there that most girls did it to stay comfortable...NOT to be a ho. Lastly...for fucks sakes...BATHE REGULARLY!!!

- Personality is another good thing...but like the physical...there isn't a specific type of personality that I go for...I could like one girl based on Intellect and poise, and another because she's fucking hilarious. I will say though, that the more open-minded she is...the better. Open-mindedness is a great thing because that means there's always room to learn some new shit, and being with someone thats like that means that there's not much room for the relationship to become stale. Common interests help in terms of building a foundation, so I look for that sometimes. Depending on those commonalities, my intrest in her may increase, or stay the same. However, I noticed that certain common interests are red flags that a relationship deeper than friends may not even be an option. In life, I've noticed that girls I meet that are interested in Comic Books, Animation...regardless of country of origin, Video Games, and/or Drawing are UNATTAINABLE. Why? Chances are she's got her mind set on someone else already, and more than likely, that someone else ISN'T YOU/ME. Or, she's taken for life...regardless of whether or not the guy in question is a gentleman or an asshole, she is not likely to ever leave him. There's also the off chance that homegirl is single for a reason...there's something really wrong with her...but I digress...

Movelist

- I don't think I'm hot shit, never have, never will. However, I don't think I'm an under the bridge troll either. My self esteem level is pretty good, actually. I know I'm decent enough to the point where I'm easy on a girls eyes, and really, thats all you need. I'm not a lardass, but I'm not a twig. I'm not a superhero, either...I'm just me, and honestly, I know good and damn well I could work out more. (something I'm actually working on) I'm not a genius, but I'm not a moron...I know enough to get by...and understand that there's much to be learned in life and that I'm more than willing to learn it. If you treat me right, expect to be treated right in return...if you're a bitch...expect me to not even give a damn about you. I have mutual respect for everyone I come across...everything else falls into place accordingly, and its all honest.

- When I'm actually blessed with the role of Boyfriend...I'm sad to say that I have no idea how well I do as a boyfriend, mainly because my relationships have this tendency to not last very long. I've never gotten past 3 months with any one girl (Tanya Lane doesn't count, for those that know who she is...we were off and on for a majority of my high school career), and I believe my shortest relationship ever was like...6 hours? I couldn't even tell you who my first girlfriend ever was, but I can tell you who the most important one is, thus far. The reasoning for this shortness in my relationships isn't exactly an easy one...it can be anything from simply her moving far away (I don't do Long Distance, unless its temporary...if I can't so much as hold you, I don't see a point.), to something as ridiculous as "I can only date Christian Boys". There's even been a few mutual breakups in there...one of them to this day, unexplainable. Usually when I've been on the recieving end of a dumping, it was most likely for some bullshit reason, or she was moving away, or it was mutual. If I was the one doing the dumping, it was either because the month was up and the psycho/bitch came out (I have a sound theory that a girl can never hide her psychotic tendencies for more than one month...so if you ever see me dating a girl and I don't seem too happy about it at first...its because its the first month and I'm waiting for the psycho to appear.) and I was like "HELL NO!", or I came to the realization that we're simply not on the same page enough to work out on that level. I've only ever broken up with a girl once on account of my own faults. Regardless of those statistics, I can assure you that I am in no way, "perfect". I would never Cheat on a girl, or leave her for someone else. Who I'm with is who I'm with until its over, and if thats the case, I don't do rebounds either. I guess if you wanna know what the girls think of me as a potential mate, ask them...or they'll say so in a comment here. If you wanna know what kind of boyfriend I was...ask my exes...I'm still in contact with a few, and I usually tend to be on good terms with them.

- I don't believe in a male dominated relationship, but that doesn't mean that I'm the one that wants to be controlled either. Because of how I grew up, I know that a woman is capable of doing pretty much anything a man can do just as well, if not better...thusly, my ideal relationship is that of equality. I don't think anyones role in a relationship should be to control the decisions and activities of another. If I didn't agree with what you did or who you hung out with, I'd never have dated you in the first place. You're entitled to being with your friends and family...you're entitled to your girls night out, (shit, thats more necessary than entitled) You're entitled to YOUR LIFE. I shouldn't have to worry about where I stand with you, because YOU'RE DATING ME! 'The fuck do I care about who you hang out with? 'The fuck do I care about who you're talking to? 'The fuck do I care what you're wearing to go out? I'm your boyfriend, not your parole officer. If I'm with you, its because I trust in you, and I'd expect the same treatment in return. You can also be sure to expect me to treat you just the same as I did before we went out in the first place. However, don't expect me to EVER put my friends on the backburner for you...my girlfriend and my friends are held on the same level of importance to my life(of course, with the proper differences in relationship-type level) and I'll be damned if you're going to put yours on the backburner for me! (If you're anything like Brittany Cullen...my most recent ex...don't even bother speaking to me...I want nothing to do with the likes of you.)

- Despite that I've had girlfriends...I've never actually been on an honest to goodness DATE with any of them...I have an Idea as to how to behave on a date, and what to do in such a situation...but I myself have never had the experience or the pleasure of such a thing. All I can say is that I'll do my best.

...I'm not sure what else to say about myself...the rest is left up to whatever questions you ask that I'll be willing to answer.

Endgame

- You're probably wondering why the hell I wrote all this shit about myself, and why I chose not to leave any of it up to ones imagination. My answer to that is this: I've always wanted to, but even all this doesn't amount to actually experiencing me in any form. The only way I can live up to anyones ideals in being a boyfriend, my own ideals included, is if I'm given a chance to do so. I wanted to talk about my thoughts on BEING with someone this time, rather than the old mystery of why I'm put in the friends zone so much/passed up. I wanted to show people that I'm not some hopeless lonely desperate fuck...that I know what its like to be taken, even if only for a little while. I wanted to show the guys that think there's no hope for them, that there is some hope...even if a girl burns you, keep on going anyways, because not all girls are the same...not all girls are bitches...so don't give up. (although this can be gender reversed and applied accordingly, straight or gay) And of course...I wanted to spark discussion. Now for all the faithful readers...a bonus!

Here Comes A New Challenger!

- Yep, its true, I'm currently crushing on someone new. I'm not going to name her, but I'll tell you about her...because I can. Oddly enough, I first came across her on fucking VampireFreaks.com, (A "goth" site I joined as a joke with my friend Abt) but I did not actually speak to her until I saw her MySpace (go ahead and laugh, 'cause I laughed at myself just as well). I think that lookswise...she's borderline beautiful, I won't know for sure until I actually spend in-person time with her, because personality goes with that. We have some very important shit in common...things that have to do with the heart, and I have never come across a girl I'd connect like that with...ever. I've spoken to her online quite a few times...and its come to our attention that we have mutual in-person friends...so that helps, a lot. She doesn't really say much, save for laughing at my jokes and simple responses...but when we really talk, its great talk. She seems to show interest in actually meeting me in person and hangin' out and shit...so thats also damn cool. We've attempted a meeting twice...but it was botched on her behalf both times. (I can't be at fault for it because I was at work, which was where she was to meet me, both times this was supposed to happen) She was very apologetic about it and felt bad...and being that everyone we both knew mutually spoke nothing but praises of her...I opted to forgive her, despite that I was visibly upset both times...and even defended her despite my friends disapproving of her "blowing me off" (she honestly didn't...go easy on her!) I don't know what she really thinks of me...but I see potential for SOMETHING there in her...but I'm not going to act upon that right now...I want to know for sure the feeling is mutual later on...and I don't want to play myself for a sucker...

2006 year in review.

2006-12-24T10:04:03Z

FUCK 2006

F.A.Q's of Life Episode 4.3 SPECIAL...

2006-12-01T08:25:10Z

...isn't happening, sorry. I decided against it because it was supposed to be about me and dating. Why is that bad, you ask? Simple, I tend to be misunderstood when it comes to my honest opinions on things, and I don't need drama form that shit right now...if ever. Add in the fact that no one really gives a damn, and there you have it.

Updates on the Life of Riot.EXE

2006-11-13T05:49:34Z

1 - I'm still single...no girls are paying me a lick of attention...and its not bothering me one bit. I have no female drama, because its very apparent that our generation of females are FUCKED UP...and I'm staying as far away from that shit as possible. Speaking of which, F.A.Q.'s of Life is returning very soon...Dating Chronicles 4.3: Special Kenny edition. It will be very informative, since its going to be damn near everything pretaining to me and my thoughts on dating...I betcha can't wait for it!

2 - I'm quitting the arcade...the two weeks notice ends this wednesday...I've started working at Game Crazy now, and soon I should be working at Hot Topic as well (most ridiculous discount ever)

3 - Screw saying what I'm going to draw in advance...I'm just going to draw when I fucking feel like it, ok? and don't ask me to draw you shit either...

4 - When I get my sleep schedule straight...expect the articles to return...Art Rant, Ross Campbell Review Extravaganza...all that good shit...

5 - remember this date...7/7/07

SPECIFICALLY for Nabi...

2006-10-23T22:52:32Z

1. Reply to this post if you'd like some ego boosting.

2. Watch my journal over the next few days for a post just about you, only you, and why I think whatever I do about you.

3. Post these instructions in your journal and pass it on.

To Hell with Holding it in (an eMail I sent to my ex last night)

2006-10-19T22:07:01Z

... I think you are a fucking idiot.

...my other myspace/livejournal/other online/other offline friends think you're a fucking idiot.

...my mom and stepdad think you're a fucking idiot.

...my cousins think you're a fucking idiot.

...Nate took it upon himself to ask completely random females in spring hill mall about what they thought of what you said...40 out of 40 said you're a fucking idiot.

...I've nothing against the rest of your family...or anyone else you associate with...I'm not even hurt by what you said...I really think its hilarious that a girl today would want to be treated like a slave, and be told how to live...apparently you couldn't handle a guy willing to let you be you...so be it...my homegirl Alexis put it best:

"First of all: If it types like a child, raises points like a child -- something about walking like a duck and quacking like a duck?

She's a stupid immature bitch. You're better off not wasting any more time with her or her ilk.

OMFG U GAVE ME 2 MUCH FREEDUM?! -- why is this an issue? are you an untrustworthy whore who has to be babysat every waking moment? are you THAT codependent that you have to have the male in your life fuss over you like a mother hen and make your decisions? you can't HANDLE that much freedom?

have fun dating a guy that beats and controls you, then whine about freedom, you childish cunt.

"you dont know what to do with a women even if she took your hand and showed you." -- apparently you don't know how to BE a woman. so until someone takes your hand and shows YOU, I suggest you go back the the fucking sandbox where you belong."

...anyways...kinda fucked up how you spoke to me like nothing was wrong that night...before i even saw what you wrote...funny how you just up and decided to flip on me and say that I was wrong for everything I was doing right (I know it was right because you SAID it was good that I was who I was and did what I did) and then contradict yourself by accusing me of treating you like garbage when you know good and damn well I never did such a thing. More importantly, according to the first half of the shit-heap you wrote, you apparently WANT to be treated like shit...so be it...

I saw the end coming...I knew I was going to because you were blowin' me off and actin' funny for a week and a half...I just didn't see that the end was going to be so FUCKING STUPID...whatever...its done, I'm done...yes I got my shit out of your room (lock your fucking door, or do you want to get robbed THAT badly?) and I really don't give a shit as to why you did what you did and said what you said despite it making no fucking sense at all...

...have an unpleasant life...as for the rest of your family...best of wishes to them...such wonderful people...

Hey friends, your thoughts are EXTREMELY welcome right now

2006-10-08T01:30:15Z

(Crossposted from MySpace, and one edit in the amount of relevant posts between this one and the other that I referenced...everything else is VERBATIM)

so...I logged on while getting ready to go out tonight...and I came across this in my "my female friends are going to hate me..." post, written by Brittany, the girl I WAS dating up until this...

"the reason the girls dont go for you is cuz you let them be so damn free and they dont like that then theyll run away waiting for you to notice that your not being a man and that your a pussy then they leave. the reason your friends dont date you is ccuz they already know this and dont have the guts to tell you. girls like having freedom but not as much as you give you need to put your foot down. and you dont do it and you need to. some girls dont like to say what you need to do to make them happy they show you and if you dont understand your gone. they show you the road to take but you have to know what your doing in order to make them happy and you dont even know how to do that yet your like a child when it comes to this y cant you understand that. i only read have of this and im already sick and disgusted with you. i dont even want to know how the rest goes. you cant take no for an answer when a women says no if your going out with her but yet you still let her do whatever she wants and you take to her like shes a dog (yes im talking about the way you treat me) and i know that a bunch of your friends are going to hate me but i dont care. you dont know what to do with a women even if she took your hand and showed you. and girls she that for the first time when they first meet you and thats why you can never get a girl. -your so called girl friend that you never asked out but told everyone you were dating and never put her on your top 8"

Now, I know most of you at least read the post prior to this, which explained how she came into my life in the first place, and from that point...everything was fine with her, I had no problems with her and I thought she had no problems with me...her family seemed to like me, and my mom was cool with her (she never got to meet my stepdad). I remember her telling me...somewhere around the first week, that she appreciated the fact that i looked her in the eyes when she spoke to me, and that I actually RESPECTED HER. The reason why I didn't "ask her out", is because...as I stated like 2 posts below below this (Oh. What. The. Fuck.) SHE WAS THE ONE WHO CAME TO ME! So...I figured if she wanted to be with me, I'd give her a shot and be with her...and now...this...

...so yeah, girls and guys...tell me what you think of this turn of events, and whether or not you agree with what she has to say about me...because, guess what...about 80-85% of you all know me WAY better than she ever did or will...

The Ross Campbell Review EXTRAVAGANZA...bitches! (Part One)

2006-09-27T06:09:02Z

This is being done because in the last review post I did, Ross wondered out loud where the reviews for his other works were (because he knew I had them)...so, because he asked for it, I'm givin' it to him. Oh yeah...and the works in which I'm reviewing are completely created by him...art, and plot, and everything else. (Click the title of the book for art pretaining to the book in question)

The Abandoned (Published by Tokyopop)
- Alright, this one here is a Zombie book...a different kind of zombie book, but in a similar vein to another series I'm fond of, "The Walking Dead"...its not so much about the zombies, as it is about the people who are unwillingly tasked with dealing with the zombies.

The story follows a punk/metal/i really don't care what scene its supposed to be-ish girl named Rylie that lives with her dad in Buffalora...her life, her friends, her jobs, her attempt at a love-life with a girl named Naomi that she met at a rock show a while back and convinced her to move down to her area. Like the movie, "From Dusk Till Dawn", the book starts out establishing the characters themselves, and their seemingly normal lives. No hint or mention of zombies what-so-ever for quite some time. All the while, there's a hurricane rocking the nearby area...oddly enough...the hurricane is named "Riley" (nuh-uh...Rylie with a mutha fuckin' Y!) which is being followed by the local news during all of this. Ross was a clever guy to do that, lemme tell ya...you see, Rylie has a thing for the zombie genre...and secretly wished that there'd be a zombie invasion to live though...and this is where the shit gets crazy. While Rylie is workin' her shift at this old folks home...Riley (the hurricane...keep up) comes through and knocks the power out. The old folks start freakin' out...while Rylie and her co-worker tries to calm everyone they can see down, and check on the others...and they the old folks start to die...

...then, HOOOOOOOOOOLY SHIT, FUCKIN' OLD MAN GOT UP OUT OF HIS WHEELCHAIR AND ATE THAT POOR GIRLS GOD DAMN FACE!!! Rylie is like "whoa!" and she is now stuck with a heavy case of Careful-What-You-Secretly-Wish-For. Thats why I said Ross was clever as fuck for doing that...i mean...think about it...

Anyways...its from that page, that Ross lets you know where you are and what you're reading...yet he still manages to make the experience deep. Rylie manages to survive the old folks home through the night, and then wakes up the next day and ventures out to the chaos she used to call home, and is discovered by some friends of hers...they all start goin' all rescue mission mode and gathering up their friends, and then they make their way to Naomi's place. It's deep because amidst the chaos, the group is still trying to keep their shit together...and you get to see what they're all like. Everyone has a unique personality about them...very well written dialogue, even when there really isn't anything of importance being said. Hell, the "fucking fat bitch" of the group uttered what I think is one of the best damn lines ever read (its a decent sized list, actually...) in a comic. See, what was goin' on, was Mae (The Fucking Fat Bitch) and Nicole (The Big Breasted Blonde Ditz you can't help but like because of her charm) are raiding the Kroger that Mae worked at for food to take back to Naomi's House. Nicole is looking over the grocery list to double check what they got, and what they still need to get...and comes across "Sesame Sticks". Then, holy shit...Mae's all like "Sesame Sticks? Who the FUCK wrote that? I ain't fightin' no fuckin' zombies for Sesame Sticks!" Its stuff like that, that makes the book worthwhile.

The Art...Its definitely pleasing to the eye, and reflective of the people you see every day...kids and adults of all kinds of body types are represented here, and with the way the world of comics usually is, its a damn good breath of fresh air. However...this IS a zombie book, and for everything thats "beautiful"...you are going to see blood, gore, and chaos...when it happens, Ross doesn't hold back. He keeps that shit real, and you know he's representin' his love of the Zombie Horror everytime some shit goes down, and you can't help but respect him for it. (Take note! The band "Bella Morte", who is quoted throughout the book, makes a cameo appearance as zombies...also, Ross himself caught a skillet to the dome thanks to Nicole...DAMN!)

If I had to make complaints though...its simply that thanks to Tokyopop...there may not be a part 2 or 3 (this was intended to be a trilogy). Also, I kinda wish Ross hadn't offed so much of the established cast so soon, right as I was startin' to like some of 'em...but maybe that was done because of the whole tokyopop fiasco, in which case, it makes perfect sense, and I forgive him.

All in all, the book is a hell of an experience and should definitely be picked up by those lookin' for something different, as well as those who are into zombies (regardless of the degree)

...comin' up...Wet Moon 1 and 2, reviewed by ME!

Random Shit

2006-09-25T22:18:26Z

...the girl who shares my girlfriends name is a fucking bitch

...the Ross Campbell review special should be coming either tonight or tomorrow night

...why are sprite sheets so hard to find these days? when I was in high school they were a dime a dozen...now its like...GAH! and I don't want no preanimated sprites either...ON THE SHEET! who, you ask? just send me to where I can find some good capcom and snk sprites...capcom's marvel characters would help (for my Civil War Banner spoof thingie)

...FINISH DRAWING EVE!!! THEN DRAW AMANDA!!! THEN DRAW AND DRAW AND DRAW!!!

...got a job interview tomorrow morning...why is this one special? the potential for a LARGE PAYCHECK!!! wish me luck.

...hmmm...

oh. what. the. fuck.

2006-09-09T05:30:59Z

Really cool event number 1:
- So much earlier this morning, I spoke with my homeboy, Antonio, on AIM. He informed me that the Tekken 5 Joystick Bundle dropped to 30 bucks at GameStop, and thusly bought another one. I took note of this because that stick is a Hori stick, and Hori Sticks are A-OK...so I went to sleep, and woke back up of course...I was supposed to go fill out an application at this tool warehouse in front of the local post office...so before I did that, I stopped off at my local GameStop. Mendoza was workin', and I proceeded to ask him about it. His store didn't have any left, so he called the Crystal Lake store (I was hoping I wouldn't have to see Emily if they did have any)...alas, they didn't have any either...so he checked with the Spring Hill Mall store, but while he was doing that, I was surveying the used game section for PS2, and I found Viewtiful Joe 2 (and paid like...8 bucks for it...) which I had a hard time finding. Back to Mendoza...he said they didn't have any either, but he didn't wanna give up for me, so he called the local EB (remember, EB and GS are one now...) and they had ONE LEFT, so he told them to hold it for me. I went to the EB and traded in my copy of Tekken 5 to lessen the value (the bundle came with the game anyways, so nothing was lost) and I wound up only paying like...25 bucks for something that was originally 100...

Props tp Antonio for informing me, and props to Mendoza for makin' sure I got mine...

Really cool event number 2:
- many, Many, MANY friends showed up at my job today...thats always a plus.

Really cool event number 3:
- I went to Gloria Jeans to get a Strawbery fruit chiller, and Tiffany and Destinee (a fellow Spider-Man fan) were working...Destinee rang me up...and somehow fucked up the total, so i only wound up paying like...46 cents. Before I could really start enjoying my drink...fucking Kyra stole it and took a sip out of it (I REALLY hate it when people drink out of my drink...) so there went my drink...I gave it up to the Misfit Toys: Generation 2...and was pissed for like...a second. then I remembered that the fucking drink wasn't even 50 cents...so I bought another one...cool shit.

Really cool event number 4:
- So Megan came by...and brought her friend Brittany with her...I remembered her from the one other time I saw her, when she came to my job with Nate (3:16/Inc.) and Mitch (Public Enemy #1 to many...but not me...) we all talked for a while...Brit and I talked more when Meg was away doing whatever...Brit spoke of a "Boyfriend" and I was like "whatever..." because my mind wasn't really on that shit at the moment, so I thought nothing of it. They had to leave for a bit, and the day went on...eventually, they returned while I was playing Marvel vs. Capcom (one of the only 2 good games at that arcade/my job...Billy and I are working to fix that) and Brit gave me a questionable hug...more of a "hey baby" than a "hi"...I shrugged it off...they left again...

...Closing time...when I was about to leave...Meg and Brit showed up one last time...and all of a sudden Meg wanted me to stay and keep the place open, but I really wanted to go home, and I kinda needed to. She was practically begging me to stay, and I was steady tellin' her no...eventually she calmed down and asked me to talk on the side for a moment...I sighed, and we went off to some corner...then she told me some shocking shit...

...wait for it...

...so, apparently, Brit was crushin' on me HARD...but I was like "she said she has a man"...apparently she tells that to all the guys (women and their fucking tests...those are usually never good...and I know from personal experience) and I passed the test by not giving a shit about her "having a man"...I decided to stay a LITTLE while...

...so, um...I guess I have a girlfriend now...I'm not gonna fight that...

...crazy, huh?

New Art

2006-09-05T11:18:56Z

new pic, "Myriani Dregonetti"

for everyone: http://RiotEXE.Multiply.com
for the fellow "artists": http://RiotEXE.DeviantArt.com

...note...just started adding shit to my DeviantArt page...I'm not happy with the interface...at all...I can't seem to group things like I can in my Multiply Site...

For my artsy muh-fuggaz

2006-09-04T06:38:55Z

http://RiotEXE.DeviantArt.com

there...are you happy now?

my female friends are going to hate me...so be it

2006-09-01T06:21:50Z

kiss my kitty x: hey
RiotEXE: yo
kiss my kitty x: what's up?
RiotEXE: frustration
kiss my kitty x: why?
RiotEXE: i'm bored, i don't wanna be home right now, i'm lonely
RiotEXE: and i cannot, for the life of me, understand why i let being single get to me so damn hard
RiotEXE: only females that don't frustrate me right now are lesbians
RiotEXE: and thats only because i don't know any right now (correction, I know ONE)
kiss my kitty x: (frowning face)
RiotEXE: ...?
kiss my kitty x: i don't know
RiotEXE: mmm...
RiotEXE: don't worry about it
RiotEXE: seriously...you're not at fault for anything
RiotEXE: i'm just frustrated with myself right now...
RiotEXE: with life...
RiotEXE: all that bullshit
kiss my kitty x: yeah.. but sometimes it just feels weird talking to you
RiotEXE: why would it be weird?
kiss my kitty x: because i don't know what to say
RiotEXE: girls never know what to say these days
RiotEXE: its life
RiotEXE: at least, when it comes to my frustration with them and my "dating life"
RiotEXE: they NEVER, EVER, know what to say
kiss my kitty x: not much i can say that i haven't already said
RiotEXE: and thats alright
RiotEXE: i have bigger things to worry about
RiotEXE: its just that, despite the fact that they're bigger things to worry about, the solutions to those problems are simple
kiss my kitty x: i see
RiotEXE: yeah, so its not as much on my mind as the constant mystery that is women and their relationship (or aversion to) with me
RiotEXE: and its even worse up here than it was down in houston
RiotEXE: 'cause up here...i don't even get a glance
RiotEXE: its as if i appeal to no one
RiotEXE: yet i'm still told of how "great" i am
RiotEXE: so...it never makes any sense
kiss my kitty x: i wouldn't understand it either
RiotEXE: and i just think all the compliments are bullshit
RiotEXE: not that i think lowly of myself
RiotEXE: i don't
RiotEXE: but if i'm supposedly so great...then whats the fucking problem?
RiotEXE: but i also have to take into consideration that pretty much every girl i've met (since my stay in IL, that is)...is undesireable in SOME way
RiotEXE: in a big way
RiotEXE: like...she gets drunk
RiotEXE: she fucks around too much
RiotEXE: (free spirited woman = ho...i don't care WHAT anyone says)
RiotEXE: does drugs
RiotEXE: smokes the ganja
RiotEXE: cheats
RiotEXE: shallow
kiss my kitty x: i guess i'm pretty undesirable
RiotEXE: SOMETHING
RiotEXE: why would you say that?
kiss my kitty x: smoke, drink... i don't drink to get drunk that much, but i do have a drink or 2 pretty often.
RiotEXE: well you're also TAKEN
RiotEXE: you're off the hook, therefore i could give a shit
kiss my kitty x: i meant, aside from that
RiotEXE: you're not self destructive
kiss my kitty x: i've always done that stuff, since you met me. i smoke pretty regularly but it doesn't interfere with work, school, or anything important. although since trey had to pass a drug test we don't smoke anymore
RiotEXE: because you want to quit, or because its convenient
kiss my kitty x: it's a nice way to wind down before bed
kiss my kitty x: or a nice way to spend a lazy saturday.. in my opinion.. i can smoke every day and still be productive, but i can also quit whenever i want, so it works
RiotEXE: whatever works, i guess...
RiotEXE: but therin lies the other problem
RiotEXE: i question my lifestyle
RiotEXE: *therein
kiss my kitty x: why should you? you lead a life of sobriety and if that makes you happy, why question it? there's nothing wrong with that
RiotEXE: i can't enjoy life because of it
RiotEXE: not anymore anyweays...
RiotEXE: *anyways
kiss my kitty x: why? because of other people?
RiotEXE: yeah
RiotEXE: its like EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVERYONE does it
kiss my kitty x: i don't know.. for me, i don't have to drink to have a good time
RiotEXE: seems like chi-town does
RiotEXE: its fucking frustrating
kiss my kitty x: i can imagine so.
RiotEXE: i can't even THINK of having a party without liquor being involved
RiotEXE: i can't justify WHY i stay sober
RiotEXE: when all these other people i know can function quite fine doing things i don't condone
RiotEXE: people say its cool that i'm always sober
kiss my kitty x: because that's how you want to live? that should justify it enough for you.
RiotEXE: but its making me anti-social
RiotEXE: is it even worth it anymore...?
kiss my kitty x: i guess that would be a decision to make yourself
RiotEXE: well...
RiotEXE: i know i don't drink because i've seen enough drunks to not want to be like them
RiotEXE: and i don't want to know what kind of drunk i'd be (if i had to guess, i'd say violent drunk)
RiotEXE: i don't smoke weed because I think its fucking useless
kiss my kitty x: you don't have to be a drunk to drink.. my dad was an alcoholic for a large part of his life, but i still enjoy drinking from time to time. moderation is the key.
RiotEXE: I don't smoke ciggarettes because i like being able to breathe
RiotEXE: I don't do drugs because...OF THE FUCKING OBVIOUS!
kiss my kitty x: sometimes smoking weed makes me feel like an idiot because i'm so blazed i can't think.. but then again it can make you feel really nice.
kiss my kitty x: i don't smoke ciggarettes, blechhhh
RiotEXE: plus, I know for damn sure I have an addictive personality
RiotEXE: but oddly enough, I have the willpower to deny things as well
kiss my kitty x: yeah, that's why i stopped doing coke heh
kiss my kitty x: don't want to end up a fucking cokehead, and it'll never happen
RiotEXE: but then its like...
RiotEXE: say i go to a party
RiotEXE: everything is cool...but the kids are bored
RiotEXE: they start to drink or whatever
RiotEXE: then they start to have fun
RiotEXE: but now everyone i know there...isn't themselves...so i'm bored AND uncomfortable
RiotEXE: so i leave
RiotEXE: the kicker is...
RiotEXE: who's the boring one...me, or them?
kiss my kitty x: i think it's sad when you *have* to drink to have fun and have a good time with your friends.
RiotEXE: seems like thats what the kids these days need to do
RiotEXE: they HAVE to take some additive of dumbassedness
RiotEXE: like these friends i go to see at their job thats in the same mall as mine, seems like every "exciting" story they have...liquor and such was involved
RiotEXE: stories with co-workers back when i was at lowe's
RiotEXE: liquor...every time.
kiss my kitty x: most of mine do too.. but i've also had some great sober times too. just depends.
RiotEXE: every party i went to...liquor
RiotEXE: ciggs (which i'm actually somewhat allergic to...i have to alter my breathing to be around it...too much and i feel like i'm drowning)
kiss my kitty x: yeah i know what you mean
kiss my kitty x: i'm not allergic to it but it makes me feel like death
kiss my kitty x: i'm soooo glad trey quit
RiotEXE: i don't want to be a party pooper, but damn...
RiotEXE: i'm so frustrated with my generation
RiotEXE: i feel like an old bitter man
RiotEXE: an old, bitter, LONELY AS FUCK, man
RiotEXE: pathetic...
kiss my kitty x: i wish i could help
kiss my kitty x: when are you coming back to houston?
RiotEXE: as far as i know...never
RiotEXE: because i don't have the means to do such a thing
RiotEXE: unless someone i know down there dies a horrible death...or a death at all
kiss my kitty x: oh
RiotEXE: not like going back to that shithole is going to help ANYTHING
RiotEXE: i wanted so badly to just LEAVE
RiotEXE: and i got that chance and i took it
kiss my kitty x: yeah..
RiotEXE: i don't really desire to come back
RiotEXE: oddly enough though...sometimes i regret leaving at all
RiotEXE: since it turned out IL ain't no better
RiotEXE: in some ways its worse
RiotEXE: (i know too many closet racists)
RiotEXE: and there's practically no diversity
kiss my kitty x: i see
RiotEXE: i can't wait to find "home"
RiotEXE: 'cause it ain't here
kiss my kitty x: maybe back to new york?
RiotEXE: i don't have a reason to go back
RiotEXE: its too expensive to live there and i only lived there until i was 6
RiotEXE: everything i knew is gone
kiss my kitty x: yeah
RiotEXE: i dunno...
RiotEXE: i don't belong here...
RiotEXE: i need to leave.
RiotEXE: i've just been so damn miserable this past couple years
kiss my kitty x: where would you want to go?
RiotEXE: i'd like to go somewhere where the weather doesn't suck (apparently, I hate snow now)
kiss my kitty x: i'd like to move to the dallas area
kiss my kitty x: it's really beautiful
kiss my kitty x: gets just as hot as houston, but not as sticky
RiotEXE: and before i do that, I need to get to know the PEOPLE in the area
kiss my kitty x: yeah
RiotEXE: i dunno...people frustrate me these days
RiotEXE: women have always frustrated me since puberty happened
RiotEXE: even the ones I dated (with ONE exception...ONE...and she was the first girlfriend I had in IL)
kiss my kitty x: women frustrate me too, even though i'm taken. moreso actually.
RiotEXE: i just don't get it
RiotEXE: WHY DO I CARE SO MUCH!?!
RiotEXE: personally, I think its due to the way I am...
RiotEXE: I don't like unresolved problems
RiotEXE: so deep down, I've been constantly trying to solve this one
RiotEXE: the problem is...its not a problem I can solve by myself
RiotEXE: someone has to be willing to help
RiotEXE: but on that same note, no woman is put on this earth to date me, much less associate with me
RiotEXE: and I don't even mind being single, in itself...i'm not a fucking ho about it like everyone else seems to be (mostly on the female side...but there's a few guilty guys as well)
RiotEXE: its the odd factors that are stacked against me that shouldn't even be there that bother me
RiotEXE: its just i've been complimented on my personality SO damn much in my life (you're guilty of this too), so to pretty much every chick I know...I SHOULD BE TOP FUCKING MATERIAL, DAMN IT!
RiotEXE: so...the question left is...why not me?
RiotEXE: that, i'll never get an honest answer to...
kiss my kitty x: well, since i've never met you, i can't really compliment you on much else
RiotEXE: and any chick that ever said she would date me if it weren't for (insert situation here), is full of shit...I don't buy it for a second
RiotEXE: you never met me in person...but we talked so damn much over the years it really doesn't matter...to me at least
RiotEXE: i've seen you
RiotEXE: you've seen me
RiotEXE: we know shit about each other
RiotEXE: everyday shit as well as personal shit
RiotEXE: if i met you in person right now, i wouldn't feel any damn different
RiotEXE: honestly...
kiss my kitty x: i don't know, i guess it's different to me
RiotEXE: so be it
RiotEXE: it doesn't fucking matter anyways...
RiotEXE: i'm not in houston anymore...its an afterthought...
kiss my kitty x: yeah
RiotEXE: ugh...i annoy myself with this shit...
kiss my kitty x: blah. i need to go to bed soon, i have class in the morning
RiotEXE: thats alright
RiotEXE: go ahead and go, I'll catch you later or something
RiotEXE: thanks for the talk at least
kiss my kitty x: call me soon?
RiotEXE: there's no reason not to...
kiss my kitty x: okay

...and during that conversation, there was a parallel conversation...

Xlx Hikari xlX: hurro
RiotEXE: ...yo...
Xlx Hikari xlX: what's up?
RiotEXE: frustration
Xlx Hikari xlX: what's wrong?
Xlx Hikari xlX: if you don't mind me asking
RiotEXE: life and women
Xlx Hikari xlX: mm...yeah, I can see how those would be frustrating
RiotEXE: yeah, fuck females right now...
Xlx Hikari xlX: did something happen?
Xlx Hikari xlX: or is this just a result of too much alone time mixed with thinking?
RiotEXE: the latter, plus women actually suck
Xlx Hikari xlX: it's really hard to disagree
Xlx Hikari xlX: hence why I could never go lesbian
RiotEXE: seriously...why do women suck so hard?
RiotEXE: i've never known anything to kick so much ass and suck so hard other than women
Xlx Hikari xlX: it's really hard to explain that
Xlx Hikari xlX: especially since not all women are the same
RiotEXE: of course not
RiotEXE: but fuck...
Xlx Hikari xlX: I've actually been talking to Wil and his best friend about it (they question it a lot too)
Xlx Hikari xlX: but according to them, my answers aren't exactly valid since I'm supposedly an exception
RiotEXE: you're not an exception
RiotEXE: wil's just sucking up because you're dating/fucking him
Xlx Hikari xlX: from what he says, he's dating me because I'm an exception (when it comes to being girly and sucking guys dry of money and whatnot)
RiotEXE: you're not a gold digger, so what
RiotEXE: you have your faults
RiotEXE: we've discussed those faults
RiotEXE: there's no reason to go into it anymore
Xlx Hikari xlX: most girls (according to the guys) are quite shallow and love the size of a guy's wallet
Xlx Hikari xlX: they like to act out of spite and always like to have things work to their advantage
Xlx Hikari xlX: they demand double standards and like to use sex as a tool to control men
Xlx Hikari xlX: they like to control men in general
RiotEXE: all true except 2 things
RiotEXE: 1 - its only YOUNG women that are shallow...which is probably a large part of why i'm not even considered as boyfriend material anymore (because apparently, I don't fit "the look" that you all seem to worry about so much...idiots)
RiotEXE: and anyone that says "i'd date you if i wasn't (insert situation here)" is fucking patronizing me and needs to quit because i don't buy it
RiotEXE: 2 - women who also have great jobs worry about how small a guys wallet is, because if she makes more than him, she probably won't consider him because he might need to rely on her a bit...and throughout the world, we're raised to believe that we men need to support the weak women that actually aren't weak at all
Xlx Hikari xlX: women like having the best of both worlds
RiotEXE: which is their biggest fault
Xlx Hikari xlX: unfair, yes, but men who try to fight back against it are automatically looked down upon and are seen as "not man enough"...simply because of the expectations placed on them by society
RiotEXE: you want equal rights, but heaven forbid i kick YOUR ass with just cause
Xlx Hikari xlX: I'm all for being equal...I have no problem with making more money than whoever I'm with
Xlx Hikari xlX: it's just other girls aren't
RiotEXE: 'course not
Xlx Hikari xlX: really, they just want both cakes (Wil's way of saying "you can't have your cake and eat it too"...cuz that just didn't make any damn sense)
RiotEXE: it doesn't make sense because its backwards
RiotEXE: of course you can have a cake and eat it too
RiotEXE: its RIGHT in front of you, you can eat from it whenever you damn well please
RiotEXE: you can't eat your cake and have it too
Xlx Hikari xlX: what's the point of having a cake if you can't eat it? XD
Xlx Hikari xlX: hence why we say you can't have both cakes
RiotEXE: because once you eat the cake, you can't have anymore
RiotEXE: get what i'm saying?
Xlx Hikari xlX: yeah
RiotEXE: a better saying would be "everyone wants to go to heaven, but no one wants to die."
Xlx Hikari xlX: mm...nice one
RiotEXE: biggest truth i could ever tell anyone
Xlx Hikari xlX: the only other good quote I found was "if you chase two rabbits, you will lose them both"
Xlx Hikari xlX: and that was from a video game XD
RiotEXE: i remember that, but i don't remember the game
RiotEXE: i don't even think i heard it from a game...i dunno...
Xlx Hikari xlX: it's a popular quoe
Xlx Hikari xlX: *quote
Xlx Hikari xlX: the game just liked using famous quotes
RiotEXE: ah

Ugh...I need to get away from my thoughts...seriously...I need a vacation from life...

Note to "That Man"

2006-08-25T08:34:38Z

Wet Moon vol. 2 has been ordered as of 5 minutes prior to writing this...when it comes to me, I will read it, and then the "Super R.C. Works reviewed by K.R. EXTRAVAGANZA...Bitches!" will be written.

...that is all.